All work and no play..

So a new semester has started and all of the eager gym enthusiasts are all over the place with their new years resolutions and shit!

No excuses people, but I just don't get it. Why stress so much for something that just lasts for a couple of weeks? OK, some of you are for real! But I know myself and to say it and doing it, that's two completely different things peoples! Anyways for me, I use so much energy anyways, so I've found out that I keep in shape.. But I know I'm not getting younger, even though I'm not old! I look like I did in high school, so I chill for a little while longer. And until then I've taken up the search for LOVE!

Like I said to my roommate, Lena, the other day; "maybe it's best just being me and single?"

But the thing I found out it's that the one has to appreciate me for me! And it's a tricky thing. Yes, I've asked around a little lately to find out how people really see me. And all in all they see me as a sweet person, but that I can flip. I'm trying to control this. But don't I have the right to react sometimes? Me, the one you almost always see smiling, being happy and try to not be to much. So at times, I overload. My brain aches and it feels like I'm gonna explode inside. Where are you then? Why can't I open to you when I feel sad and depressed?
Yes, I blog. And a friend of mine, Edin, said that he thinks it's tough that I expose myself like this. But do I really? When the ones that known me all my life don't even know me for real? And when I can't open for anybody? There's a reason for why I'm not telling you about my deep inside. The big black hole in me.

And I'm not an patient person and it doesn't seem like I will be either for that matter.. But I still try, and it's hard! And can someone tell me why I always wind up waiting? It's so not my style at all!!
And last but not least, what's up with all the X's peoples???



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