Thee Mike B

With my sister, Annemette and one of her roommates Tarini! This is the
night peoples....

This is for you...

Click the headline and open your ears to Edo Ra, The Balkan King!

He's a good friend of mine, who's going trough a hard time right now. He's going trough what I went trough and still haven't gotten over or won't, for about three months ago tonight. The death of my dad. So my heart and soul are with him and and his family these days!

I must say that it takes time. I'm thinking about my dad and how much I miss him. I just wanted to tell him I love him before he passed. And that he has been the best dad to me. And he has always been truthful with me. Never any of that in-between-the-lines talk. And if he didn't have anything to say, he didn't. We discussed global events, war, politics and he told me about things he had experienced.

So with my heart and soul to all of you whom lost a loved one - Don't forget the good times!!!

Out to dine with my dear Johanne.. <3


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Shake what your mama gave yah...

Really peoples - Ragga on!!



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The cold..

I dislike this cold I'm having. It's boring and keeping me inside. But tomorrow I'm back to life again! YEAH!!

My biopsy yesterday went well, I'm waiting for the answer and I love to wait.. So over the weekend I can call my doctor and get my answer. So there's no worry I'm guessing! And for the rest of my body, I'm having this cold that i can't shake. I've stayed inside since Sunday. And plus I'm having these fever dreams that really disturb me. I keep believing they are real, so yes you read right, I'm having a little trouble sorting out what I've dreamed and what has happened. It's weird too, cos they all seem so real! Like I keep dreaming about the people that's in my life, that I speak to them, hang and travel around with them. Just the other day I sleep walked. And that has been a while since I did. Lena, my roommate told me, because I had a conversation with her as well. The only thing was that I look kind of gone she said.

So I'm really exhausted these days, from the poor night sleep and these dreams. But life goes on and tomorrow I'm free from this captivity! It's boring just laying in bed all day long. And I want to shake what's been given to me!
So when I'm out tomorrow I'll shake it so good!



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Pink Ribbon...

It's all coming back to me now. The feelings around my dad, the illness and all the insecurity that comes with not knowing. Even though I have to say that I don't believe somethings wrong before it's on paper.

Yesterday I watched Oprah, yes I do that sometimes. And it was about breast cancer. The one whom survived it and the history around how the pink ribbon came to life. Just push the headline, there's a link.

Why I write about this today is that I'm having my biopsy tonight at 6pm, in my armpit. Because I found a lump about a month ago, I went to my doctor. Who sent me to mammography, that ended up with an ultrasound the same day and then the doctor asked me if I could come back for a biopsy the next week. All the thoughts that went trough in my head then. I know there's nothing to worry about, but I just lost my dad to cancer so like human nature it's natural to react on this. When I was done with my mammography and ultrasound I called my mom and freaked out for few minutes before I came back to myself. Then I went around a week with not thinking about this. So yesterday when I saw this on Oprah it shook my bones! And my thoughts begin to wander again.
But I've got all odds with me, because I'm young and it's probably just a gland. And I met a lot of young survivors from cancer.

So until tonight I'm sitting here with my cold and wait for Lena to come home. She's coming with me and I'm thankful! This is one of these things I'm glad for having someone with me on. Otherwise I'm an independent woman!



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NIKE Convention 2009

This is my weekend people. And I'll say I got my exercise on today!
Props to the instructors.. I'll write more about this tomorrow!

This is the place to be!!

Party

Still SIRKUS..

And here er are..

Marthe, me and Johanne..

SIRKUS

This is The Spirit premiere party.. We're out, Johanne, Marthe and me.
An impuls out night!

Cleaned..

This me without, but I've got two new tunnels.. So I'm up on 22mm
after 8 years..

Dress to impress..

Hey boys, this is the new style for the season!

The single one...

"Still, what I have been able to see of your past, is the great deceit that still affects you. It is that deception, that you may have long forgotten, this deception caused by a person you had so much affection for, you felt it as a betrayal, this deception that is still in you today."

And now I'm taking action - cleaning out of closet as my good friend Lena says! And hey what a job I'm doing! When I do something I do it good.. hehe.. Or is it really what I'm doing?
I have this thing with not wanting to be alone. So I probably seek companionships or relationships.. And I do attach to people easily. Sometimes I wish I didn't, but I have to take chances and be in this life! What if I miss out on something, good experiences, people or life?! What would you do?



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Sick and tired!

What's up with all this? Yes, I know I'm not the most patient person in the world. And it could be Karma kicking my little ass this time around. But what's up with all the "promises"? Why say something that you're not gonna keep? Why even bother with this, when it's all just talk?

No this time around I really mean it - FUCK IT! There's no going back and there's really no use in going back either. Why keep something that didn't work. Tell me is it only one thing you want? Be honest! I've changed my rules, I've changed myself this time around. I'm sick and tired of explanations, excuses, anxiety attacks and everything else that in reality means that you don't like me! I'm to good for all this shit. And that's because I'm worthy so much more. And if you can't see this - don't be bothered anymore! Keep your distant instead of promising me stuff.

So now I'm on something new, just to try this out - so I'll keep you posted on my "new" life on "sukker".

Until the next time - chill.. It's all LOVE!!



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Sunday dinner

This is an curry a'la Lady AhYs style.. So I'm home chilling and
eating a good meal!

Air Max1 ;)

Train Tønsberg - Oslo

The snow's here and suddenly it's all white and clean again. After an
succesful Saturday with my TT ladies, it's about time to get my ass
back to EyesLow ;) Yesterday I took the bus, but that took almost two
hour. And it's only 2nkr more with the train. So here I am. The album
of this trip is 808s and Heartbreak from Kanye West!

But I have to say I love you TTs <3 Special you are, each and every on
of you!!!



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On the Timesexpress to Tønsberg..

On the road again, this time for celebrating my TT lady, Tina <3 So my
bags packed and I'm soon arriving at Synnes crib!
Happy birthday Tina <3

Friday 16.01.09

Chillin with Mr. Aziz.. This is how do, with our dranks on!!

Friday night..

It's on..

Weekend again..

I sit here again waiting. But this time it's for my friend Edin. We're gonna get our drank on this Friday night.

So I've prepared myself with my curls, new nail polish and my face on. Ready for whatever this night will bring. No one knows what this night will bring. So here we're ready for everything! And one of the things I always do when I wait for people is taking pics of myself. And I've pored myself a glass of white wine, sitting here chilling and listening to Devin The Dude. The new album Landing Gear, that came out on7th of October 08 is cool, mellow and sounds like him. Loving this album and the track, "I can't make it home".
So chill with this album and The Dudes music in general.So here's a few songs to check out to hear what I'm talking bout!

So this is it for now.. But I'll be back later dudes ;)! PUT ON YOUR DANCING KICKS!!!!



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All work and no play..

So a new semester has started and all of the eager gym enthusiasts are all over the place with their new years resolutions and shit!

No excuses people, but I just don't get it. Why stress so much for something that just lasts for a couple of weeks? OK, some of you are for real! But I know myself and to say it and doing it, that's two completely different things peoples! Anyways for me, I use so much energy anyways, so I've found out that I keep in shape.. But I know I'm not getting younger, even though I'm not old! I look like I did in high school, so I chill for a little while longer. And until then I've taken up the search for LOVE!

Like I said to my roommate, Lena, the other day; "maybe it's best just being me and single?"

But the thing I found out it's that the one has to appreciate me for me! And it's a tricky thing. Yes, I've asked around a little lately to find out how people really see me. And all in all they see me as a sweet person, but that I can flip. I'm trying to control this. But don't I have the right to react sometimes? Me, the one you almost always see smiling, being happy and try to not be to much. So at times, I overload. My brain aches and it feels like I'm gonna explode inside. Where are you then? Why can't I open to you when I feel sad and depressed?
Yes, I blog. And a friend of mine, Edin, said that he thinks it's tough that I expose myself like this. But do I really? When the ones that known me all my life don't even know me for real? And when I can't open for anybody? There's a reason for why I'm not telling you about my deep inside. The big black hole in me.

And I'm not an patient person and it doesn't seem like I will be either for that matter.. But I still try, and it's hard! And can someone tell me why I always wind up waiting? It's so not my style at all!!
And last but not least, what's up with all the X's peoples???



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Still on..

I honestly don't know what you think or feel. But I'm not certain on myself either. And in these days with all the craziness, with the vandalism and the people acting like animals! OK, I've never been an angel, but hey I've never gone around breaking windows and shit. Yes I done a few things that I'm not proud of, but come on! It's to much these days!

So now I'm over it all and my life will be subtle and chill from now. I have to go inside myself and see me again. Like a recovery state of mind. Not letting you or others disturb my inner peace with myself. I have to take back control over my own life. Though I've never really lost it I guess. But I'm not patient, I wish I was. And my humor, my good - it's not gonna change. Why change for another person? I wonder why you keep on coming back if there's nothing in it?!?

I wish I was patient, had curls and no troubles in the dating area! But hey, I'm not gonna get it all at once. Curls I can buy or get for a little while. And I have to say that I think I look cute with them.. For the other things, cos that just what it is. I just have to be patient - oh my!

So let it rip...



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Saturday with Johanne..

This is the shit peoples!!!



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Friday night out..

Hooking up with my lovely sister, Annemette tonight. Going out, Asian
up this cold capital! And I got my curls on.. So it's gonna be a good
night!

Lena on the green dog..

We want this dog in our appartment. Would someone please buy this for
us? You'll find it in House of Oslo..

In and out of LOVE..

This is a tricky thing. Like i said before, giving out your heart and soul to another person. Man, it's not a thing that comes easy for me!

But to be loved you have to let yourself love. I know maybe it sounds bit cheesy, but hey it's the truth. And it takes time and commitment to build a strong, solid relationship. OK, I'll admit that I'm not an expert on love. But I do know that I want love in my life. And it's not a rule that you have to be alike or have the same opinions! I think that opposites attract. And the more you can give your partner it's better for both of you.
One of the most important things is the laughter, the other person has to make me laugh. I'm addicted to smiling and being positive. So if you can't be an optimist, just try it out! Your life will be so much more easier.

But for me it's hard letting people in under my skin. It's not a given for me that people are honest about what they're saying. But I have to choose to trust you with my heart, until you prove me wrong. If you do that! I prefer you to be honest from the beginning! And to say to you easily scared ones, don't be. And if you are, maybe it isn't right?!?

I don't demand things, just that it is the two of us...



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Welcome to heartbreak...

I get it now - My humor isn't like others. So the things I say, write and do aren't always taken as it should be! But get a grip people. To you who know me, or at least think you do. Know that I'm seldom serious if it's not face to face talk!

And if you say you're here for me, don't let it be just words! I'm not a person that trust people easily. I have my reason for this! The only thing I've ever demand from another person is honesty, and if you can't be that.. I know that I do live my life as I want to, but as long as I don't have commitments there's no regrets in what I do or say! But to my friends I'm am honest and always here! Anytime, if you need me I'm there or at least just a phone call away.
I know that I'm not all that, but in this thing we call life and in my own little space I am! And I'm worth so much more.

I've been hurt a lot of times, not because I've been dumped. But I lost people dear to me, whom I loved more than myself and it's taken a part out of my heart every day! So now I'm on love lockdown! Until that one person know how to open this lock I'll just be a friend or whatever. I'm done now!

BTW - there's a link in the headline...



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Things fall apart...

Every time like an angle's falling from the sky it hits me. This storm, that I know so deep inside myself. But the thing we call life make sure that we do experience this!

Things aren't serious and not like it seems to be. I had a better life before, without caring about shit! But now, my view on life, people and all these things has changed. My easier life was nothing like this. I didn't care, and I think maybe that's the way to live my life. Don't think about the small stuff. Just let things be what they are. Not analyzing or thinking that it's something else. Just take it all for what it is!

Never underestimate the brain or your inner voice!
But hey, I'm fucking tired with this shit! So stay away or be real!!



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All over..

There's nothing to regret, just live the life you supposed to! Never look back and don't think what if I..

I just realized that everything I think of gets real! Like an oracle one of my friends, David says. I don't know about that. But I do know things. And my intuition never fools me either. So be scared or whatever, I really don't give a fuck anymore. Some of you think that I live my life sitting here waiting for..you! No man! There's no waiting, only action. I have this ability to just move on with my life. So that's what I do and will keep on doing until that one day you stop me!
Nevertheless I'm sick and tired of being here in this same place day after day, month after month, year after year! I'm 27 now - it's my time! So to all you suckers - remember or just forget about it!

Easy cheesy! Maybe we all just are selfish egoistic people who pretend to care?

There's no going back anymore and saying sorry gets old now! So get this, it's a new day, it's a new dawn. And shame on you for fooling me one, two, three times or whatever!
So this is the end, thank you for smoking and goodbye to you - and hook it up!



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I wish...

This I don't get. There's something I'm missing, something that's here that I don't see. Why do I have this feeling?

I wish for things to fall in place. Don't thinking of what I could, would or should. Just do what I feel inside.. Not thinking about what's what and what's not. Shit! It's better to act without thinking? Or is this all in my head again?
Over and over again I'm finding myself in the same shit. Like I do things over and over, same mistakes. But why? Ain't I'm old enough to have learned from this!

And I'm feeling down these days. The sadness is something that comes slowly, I get this now. But why is it so? Like I said before, I'm not a lady that's sad or unhappy. But lately, I've felt it. Like a thunderstorm that's suddenly there outside your window and scaring the life shit out of you! Not that I'm scared easily, but my feelings, especially the once I can't control scares me! I know that I have to deal with this shit, but why do I always do this alone? Yes, I know you read this. But the inside of me is alone, now and forever!
I wish it wasn't so...

But I'm here, taking in what you're sending my way. But hey, just once in a while give a good one!! I would love you to hear my dreams, my inner thoughts and prayers!

I wish my dreams will come true..



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This is the first day...

So the it's done and let me say that it's done with the style that no one else than we can. The girls gathered at Ida-Brits' crib last night with Tapas at the menu and wine in the blood. I got invited back to Tønsberg, so I took the train on New Years Eve. With my suitcase packed with all the goodies. All the girls, Synne, Ida-Brit, Mariann, Tina and Siri dressed up with style and grace! So we toasted in the new year with food so good and alcohol in the blood before we moved our little sweet asses to Gørans' for the party! Let me say that it was a celebration worthy of 2009! It's been a while since I spend New Years Eve in Tønsberg. I'm thinking 6 years or so..
You ladies, oh my ladies. I love you and it's our year this year! So we TT's keep it real..

BTW - Click the headline an check out the illusions..


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On the train.. Home sweet home!

On the train Tønsberg - Nationaltheateret (Oslo)