Bring it back..

Again I'm finding myself in a situation. Where I've been faced with one or more of my opinions. So it feels like it's on it's place to maybe make this twist on it.

First of all - Happy 30th Marius, the sun's out for you, so you're one of the good men..! My mind is set on change..so we'll see what's happen..

Even though I've judge some of you guys down and under here. I have to make it right. So I, who seldom admit that I'm wrong, but do change my opinions often will say this. There are actually good men out here. My pessimistic side takes me over once in a while. As a lady you know what I'm talking about and for you who don't, it's the PMS talking. But just to say that some of you're actually assholes! Treat a lady wrong and you'll find yourself in that category. And yes, I do know that we ladies can be just as bad. But we have a way that's probably more subtle. So definition, we're only humans!
I wouldn't like to come out as heartless. But I'm protecting my heart and soul. But my guard ain't up at all times. So catch me when my lights are on and I'm there!

My world's either or, there's very little in between. And I don't cry over spilled milk. So there's no regrets and no why didn't you. Sounds harsh, but it's an reality check really. To you whom dear to my heart, I'm always here no matter what. Like my TT ladies, Miss Lena, miss Johanne, Mr Edo Ra, SaniSan, pL, My lovely Claire, Miss Monica ( and family ) soon to be Mrs and the rest of you know who you are! I know I'm somewhat a little bad in staying in touch, but you're all always here in my heart! Though there might be a new one in this line.. You're maybe the one that's gonna make me wanna bring it back....




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Birthdays

So my dads birthday was yesterday. My minds not quiet yet. But will it ever be? In a subtle way it gives me peace to know that he is out of pain.

In the stars birthdays has a different meaning. They give an insight in somehow who you are as a person. Is this true or just assumptions?
I must say that i do believe in astrology. I know that some of them are generally in meaning. But there are some that just hit it!
There are many stories about girls who found love in a person who has the same birthday as their father. But I am not saying that it is so. I believe that love just hit you when you last expect it. Like death. Some things in life neither of us can help happening. The world always spin. Lives always happen and it is taken away. So we just go with the flow. In peace, trying to get the best out of the time we get here. It has come clear to me that nothing lasts forever..

My body and head feels like it is on pause. I do not understand this. I do not sleep, I am exhausted, but not tired. And still inside I feel happy, some kind of peace that I have not felt in years. Is this my guardian angel? Might be or it could be that I am on my way to find myself and see things clearly. Or is it that life just happens when I close my eyes?
What happens when you close your eyes? Do you see things, get signs or does someone speak to you?
I am not sure about whats what sometimes. But I know I do believe in the good in people, love, family, heart and soul. So in the end it will all be good, for the fact, it will be great!

I have never been one who celebrated my birthdays. But it gets me thinking. We should never quit on people. Let them in your life. Let people shine of you! They will be thankful, not because you have given them anything in particular. Just because you pay it forward.
I truly believe that in life I get chances, different paths and choices to make. Just think about different parties, like birthdays, Christmas, new years, socializing with your coworkers, family and friends. and the last one, the person you love, your best friend in life! The one you can always count on.

It feels like I am babbling to much. But there is a lot in my head now..

Live and Love!


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