Family, Life and Love.

For this is the most precious you have in life. Do not think otherwise! Let them always know that!

Especially in hard times like these. You need family and good friends. Do not think that you get through this alone as i do.. Because that is not true! I sit at times, both home and at work. Thinking about my situation. My feelings inside, I can feel my tears in my eyes. But what to i do? Nothing - i swallow this with "pride" and pretend. BUT I'm done pretending! I can not go around pretending to be a superwoman - though I am from time to time. But this is bringing back a lot of old feelings and thoughts.

I know that we are all human. And last night my mom told me that my grandma told her; " there are two things that are certain in life and that is that we are born and that we are going to die." And then she said something like this; "When you are dead you are hidden, but not forgotten."
That made me feel a little better. Because i have to say that i have not been often at the graves of those who i lost in life.That is not because i do not want to, but I am kind of afraid. For my own feelings and reactions. So i have to learn to let go of my controlling being and let it rip.

So I am not happy at all time - I am actually very often sad and feeling misplaced.
But i dearly love my family and friends! So know this i will always be here, through good, bad, happiness and sadness! Anytime, anywhere!

Love you all!!

We live in this world. Go around scraping the bottom for crumbs. It's strange. All the things that happens to a person in a life. But it's all part of the bigger sense. We're all a part in a world we really don't know. From time to time you stop and think about others. They look happy - i hope they are! It's the best feeling ever. Enjoying life like you should!
The one thing we all should be on is LOVE. Remember the people who touched you in life. This is what keeps us going. So smile to the people around you and let love in your life!
So as i, a person who thinks a lot. Doesn't express my feelings. But i hope you all know! Deeply in sorrow, but still alive - stay happy. Live life to the fullest. Don't regret anything!

Is this a thing we all should expect from another person? Or is it maybe only ourselves who can give us love. I keep wondering about this as the single lady i am. Isn't it fair to give out a little love to everybody. Smile to the people you meet. Let sunshine in your everyday life.

I read an article about flirting. And it said that we all should flirt every day. But that there is a line we shouldn't cross. For example, don't send out to many signs at once. This is a little disturbing. How do you know when you crossed that line?
They say that body language says all. But does it really? People act different and we are individuals. It's hard to see what you mean. We fool ourselves with analyzing and thoughts. But the dreams are important to maintain! Don't let anyone take your dreams away! Go for the things you want. Let no one stand in your way!
Do trust in the peolple around you - but know that in the end it's only you who can decide your own destiny.
Be thinking positive thoughts and stay optimistic. Then it's all like a flowing river..


Copyright © 2008 Lady AhY

Living this life...

There is no end to what a lady have to go trough in life. But it is all a part of the bigger sense. From time to time we get a little pain to feel alive! Or at least I think..

So now it is a new season - autumn. I love all the colors and smells that sneaks up on you. It is a time that make people reflect and think things over. A time for meetings and reunions. The thing that strokes me the most this autumn is all the people from my past that suddenly are back in my life again. And I know there has been a lot negative and some positive about facebook. But come on. This site give us all a new chance. Talking with people you have not seen or spoken to in years! Get updates on people and happenings! Staying in touch!
And do you not think that it is meant to be? What if we did not have the Internet. Would our life been different from today? You can communicate with people you would never have met! Get friends all over the world. I must say that I love this commute! It gives us all a chance to spread our wings and fly high!

Even though I have a lot of sadness and sorrow in my life this season. All the people around me helps me trough this time. By just being in my life and keeping my life positive! And i write. Just putting my thoughts and my life out here for you all to read. Just letting people know that we all have our stories. But still standing strong! I will not fall down. This will help me grow, into a person that i want to be. With understanding, feelings, love, friends and family! I would not change my life against anything. Of course there are incidents i would love to have changed. But you can not cry over what is done! It is like i said before - it is all written in stone.

Do not be thinking that your life would be different if you lived it another way. There would be something that would take your mind back and put you where you should be. Be satisfied with the life you have and try to make your friends and family happy instead. We are all just human beings. We have our own voice. You can only change yourself.

I have noticed that in my life there are certain episodes that seems to repeat themselves. The only thing that changes is the other person. I am still the same. So this time around I have been thinking that it is me. I can not blame the others. Because it is me that attract these people into my life. It is I that have the power to not let them in. The only thing that I want for myself is love and happiness! I do not want to sit here when I am older and be thinking about what I did not do. So now I am looking for love! I am trough bullshitting around! But until someone catches me I will enjoy my life. I will not be satisfied with just anything. You have to take the car for a spin before you buy it!
And me without a driver license.. And I have good friends who will catch me if I fall just in case.

But remember to LIVESTRONG!


Copyright © 2008 Lady AhY

Back on the wall

It's been a while, but I'm not gone. You get it I'm back here.
I've started working again, after a while with infections in my hips. It's better, but it's still pain.. But it's better with pain than wobbling around.. Or is it?
Before i worked as a chef and now I'm a receptionist at a gym. So this year I'll try to keep you all up to date..

Like everybody else in this world, I'll try to make this a healthier year. Like i feel we all do every year. So I'm starting with getting my exercising on. Move more, eat more and just enjoy life. As it came to my reality this summer, we only have one chance to do this right! The reason for this is that my father got cancer. And the reality of this illness is that it's bad for everybody. So my life is messy right now. But my head is still on the top, and that's a good thing right?
It's hard seeing your family go trough this, especially my brother and sister. And of course my mother. Whom i admire for all of her strength and for being the mother she is. She is an incredible woman who raised three kids. We're all "adults" now, so now it's our turn to pay it forward. We have all learned from our mistakes. My brother and sister has learned from mine.
This life isn't a sure thing. We have our ups and downs, some people more than others. But it's all a part of the game. Living in this world you shouldn't wish for it all. Just make the most of the time you get! Don't regret anything.
I see myself floating and thinking that this isn't my life. It's all so near, but still distant. It's unreal, but it's so real that it's bitch-slapping me upside my face!


Copyright ©2008 Lady AhY