To use or be used..

How did this happen I keep on wondering. From the one to the other. It's all a big pile of questions! Is it me that have to change..?

After a Christmas back home in Tønsberg, it's good to be in my own home here in Oslo for a couple of days.
And suddenly I'm on my way back to Tønsberg again, celebrating New Years Eve with my girls!
So to all a Happy New Year!!

Catch you on the flip side..



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Christmas tree <3

The day before Christmas..

In the dark on the 23th of December. I'm sitting here all by myself at work. The candles are lit and some people are swimming! And yes, it's 07:50 am, so I'm pretty impressed on this day!

And this is the last day before my Christmas holiday. I'm leaving for Tønsberg in the evening. And I must say that I'm looking forward to coming home to my mom this Christmas. I haven't celebrated Christmas at home since 2005, so it'll be good being home with my family. And the presents are in order as well, so I hope they'll be happy this year!

So to all a MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!



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Christmas chocolate

I got this from one of my costumer at work. He made my day!
Thank you and Merry Christmas!



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People and promises..

I must say that I really don't trust anyone anymore. Some people have made me become a little pessimistic towards others. Because they tend to promise things and not keep them!

For the record, I'm really an optimistic lady and you who knows me know that! But lately I've been disappointed by a lot of different people. And the only thing I know how to do then is to shut them out of my life. So that's what I do and will keep on doing! I'm sick and tired of being on 2.place, so now it's the time for me to step up my game and get the credit I deserve!
This maybe sounds a bit harsh, but if you were in my shoes you would understand it! And do remember that I do need attention from time to time. Even tho I tell you all that everything is alright, that's not always true.

OK, so that was my blowout this morning! And now I'm back to my happy and optimistic self. Christmas is around the corner and I'm looking forward to coming home to my mom and seeing the rest of my family!



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WTF!?!

Crazy things happen when the night comes. Especially when it's Saturday! And even when I changed my phone number.

So this guy sent me an sms before.. Asking if I wanted a round and if I was Pia! Hey, to say to you Thomas - NOT A GOOD MOVE! When you send an sms to someone who's not the person you think. Don't say anything more!!

Anything that's just a little incident from my life this weekend.
Friday I sat her alone, Lena is at her parents in Kongsvinger. So I moved my little ass to Edin's and chilled out there, with some shit talk and a little drank on. When I was gonna go home, the rain pored down! But just before that the snow fell down - oh this schizo weather here in Oslo! So I stood outside in the alley and waited for a taxi to come. And it did actually, so I got myself home safe and sound!

During the day we had Christmas lunch at work and Monica and I was dining out at Far East. It's an Thai-Vietnamese restaurant here in Oslo. I love, love, love their food! Yesterday we eat duck and it was delicious! For you who haven't been there yet, there's a link in the headline! And go there!
Monica I've known for about four years now. We've worked together before. Now she is pregnant and engage with a good man, Alex. So next year is a huge year for them. They're gonna be parents in the spring, supposedly around th 25th on February and get married on the 25th of July up north in Norway.
So I took her back home here, to show here my "new" crib and give her her Christmas present.

And then it was Saturday and I slept in for once! It felt so good, just sleep until I wake up and feel rested. I haven't done so much today really. Just whimsied and a little grocery shopping. But I had a dinner date. You tell me how that went! But I had a good time.. So time will tell..

But I'm happy and kind of satisfied, but still missing the spirit of Christmas. It rained yesterday, where did the white Christmas go?
And now my good friend Synne called. MAN, and reminded me of something that happened years ago. Something with a broken bed.. HAHA! I guess I know now that I'm getting some years on my back!
And when I go home to my mom, Synne and I am going out and do Tønsberg! Like we always do when we meet! It's the good old days when we meet. We known each other since 4th grade or something like that. So she knows me well!

And now it's good night for this Lady. But first, Wolverine aka SaniSan in SanFran, we're gonna do Oslo for real when you come home!! Miss you loads!!



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Christmas Circus..

Now it's the time to get into spirit. As for myself I have a bit to go just yet. But the cookies and candy are in it's place! And for the gifts that's another story peoples!

Yesterday Lena and I was out shopping and as always I ended up buying a lot of stuff for myself. I did buy some gifts, but I guess it is time to realize that gift's aren't my strongest side! I wish it was. But maybe it's that I'm fastidious?! It's not that I demand the perfect gift, but when I buy something for another person I want that person to be happy. And yes, maybe they always are. But I don't know..
Anyways i bought some, to my mom, sister and Monica. I still got my brother left. It's hard buying something for an 18 year old. But I have a little idea of what. But they didn't have it in the store. so I wait. And you know how patient I am! MAN!
And all these people who run around the city crazy for not getting it all done in time. You walk in line, stand in line and think in line. It kind of reminds me of a circus sometimes! Nevertheless all the cry babies. And that's not all meant for the babies, it's the ones whom are a little elder you know.
At times it seems like Christmas always brings out the craziness, but don't get me wrong. It's good times too!

As I work at a gym I see all the early bird special peoples who actually do exercise in the morning, and we're talking 7am peoples! I admire all of you who actually get your asses up and running so early. Yes I'm here too, but I just sit here and smile.

And so comes Christmas, every year it sneaks up on me. Like I didn't know it and suddenly it's here.

This year Christmas is not the same, it's the first one without dad. Not that we haven't celebrated Christmas without him before. He was a Captain on a boat, so he had every other summer and Christmas at home. But it's different this year around, because he's not coming back at all. I'm sad, but I know that he's in peace now and that helps me trough the days. And he wouldn't wish that I'd go around and be sad all the time either. He just wants me to be happy and do my best. And I do think a lot about him and the rest of my family. It's sad not having a dad to ask for advice. But I still have my mom and other family around me. But when I see others with their dads and TV-shows and what not I feel it in my stomach! Like a big stone just sinking down trough my insides!
I miss and love you dad!!

But I know that everything will be alright, like the song from The Killers.



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Why do men act differently after sex?!?

So my fellow women out there, have you ever thought about this. Yesterday Elisa, one of my colleagues said to me. "You have noticed that men tend do act differently after sex?"

And when I come to think about this, it is actually true! We women often hear that it is us that get to attached after a night between the sheets. But as conversations do envelope and time goes by it has come to my understanding that it is you guys that struggle with what is what. I know that it does not mean all of you. But you have to admit that after you have slept with a woman you act differently.
As for my own experience I must say that it is something in it. Some of you change drastically over night. But why is it so?

So enlighten me with some thoughts on this subject and let the us know what is really going on.



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What do you want?

Is it me that not remember or is it that you are unclear? Never the less is it hard to know what is really going on. In fact I think I am misunderstood in a lot of ways.

Weirdness is something that is truly and clearly a part of me. Not before I have opened my mouth I hear what I am saying. And sometimes it does come out wrong. But I just say what is in my heart. It is sometimes hard to see what is real and what is not. But there is nothing wrong with asking or uttering your opinions. You guys should not think that we ask questions because we want you to commit there and then. But because we want to see what is what and what else we can do. For sitting around waiting for someone to make up their mind can take a while.

As for myself I can say that waiting is not my strongest side. So if you want to get a hold of me, just take the chance!



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Life..

So it goes on by itself. Takes a new suit on and just run away. Sometimes it is a little scary. But I do love everything about it.

Yesterday was my birthday and I had a super day! Johanne, Lena and I dined out at Curry & Ketchup in Kirkeveien, Majorstuen. I love this restaurant for the mellow, grounded atmosphere. But the service yesterday was so crappy that it made us not wanna go back again. Remember all of your guests when you run a restaurant!
But the food is so good there and it is cheap as well!

After wining and dining we moved out little asses back home to the crib for more wining. Johanne and I was going to the N.E.R.D. concert at Sentrum Scene and then Nobels Peace awards After party at SIRKUS. The concert was rockin', the guys did a good show! And SIRKUS is cool. We danced the night away and drank some too!
And tonight it is the official opening for SIRKUS and Fingern's birthday party. So we will dance the night away tonight as well, Johanne and I.
So as you see I go in my 27th year with dancing and socializing!

And my foot is still hurt, I have a splint attached to it. So I walk around in turtle tempo. But do not be fooled by the slow people.

So watch out Oslo, for the Ladies tonight ;)!!


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December

The winter takes form and the cold air is all around me. I faced the ice the other day, and the result from that is a sprained ankle and crutches. But I am still smiling and happy even tho I am humping my way around.

But December is a month filled with a lot of good stuff and food! It is one of my favorites. People tend to chill out and smell the roses. And some even notice that it exists people around them and smile to them. It is always nice to be met with a smile. The worst thing is people who do not smile. It is not hard and you can make a day brighter for another person. It is so easy, so come on!

Anyways it is the last month in 2008 and it is also my birthday on the 11th. I will then be 27, so give it to me good! The year that has passed has been a good one in many ways. I got a job that I like, met a lot people and made some good friends that I always will have close to my heart and love! And I recently moved to Vika with Lena.
Tho I have been through rough times this years, my dad died the 1th of October and that is hard for me and my family. I miss him so much and had a break down the other day. I saw a TV-show where the father comforted his daughter and it just hit me in the heart and I started to cry a little.
This show, Friday Night Lights, is a warm show with a lot of heart. It is one show to watch!

As far as my love life goes.. The time will show what is in store for me! And to be honest it is a little crazy at the moment. It is all these men who resurface.
I can say that I am ready for a real relationship, but you have to show me that you are real! One of my flaws is that I quickly lose focus and just move on. I do not dwell on things or situations. And I am good at just going back inside my world like nothing has happened. But this should maybe be a sign for not being interested!
But I think life is interesting, and that it serves you a lot of opportunities and chances if you just take them. Never the less is it sad to regret over things or stuff I did not do or say when I get older.

So now I sit here at work, with my leg on the counter and a pain that is not good can I say. But still happy. It is soon Christmas and then New Years, and suddenly it is 2009. So hang on to yourself and shake it down! This is the time for craziness and fun. Bring out your happy spirits and make someone smile!



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Get your act together...

Why is it so hard, seeing this for what it is? But is it different this time around? Are you real with me?

Do not come here thinking that I will not react. Things happens fast and sometimes my mind just mess things up. But I will hang around waiting to see what this is. Not losing all my focus, but keeping some on you. Never the less, give a little bit more of myself maybe that is a start. I know there are things that I do wrong, but hey come on. I am in this with you, so give me some slack dude. And you are no one to talk. Leaving me hanging like that!

No this time around we will do this my way, with my rules and regulations! But I am easy going. Just tell me what is up and be real! And yeah, I do need attention and quality time, but I want you to get that yourself. But I love my freedom, so please do not take that away from me little man! And I am not much of an arguer, so I will keep silent instead of hustling you with a shit storm.
I know that you want time to get to know me and you will get that. But I just have to say this so you will not disappear from my life again!

So give me a hint now - is it for real this time around. I will not spook you. You do that perfectly yourself dude.. But I am here, now!



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"To digg or not to digg..."

When I think I know - my whole world get turned upside down again. And my heart skips a beat!

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away."

I know a dude that has this quote tattooed on his arm. I like this quote, i summons up a life in a sentence! This is how you should think about life!

Anyways back to the "digging". I do not know about you all, but it is never easy liking someone. The unspeakable question here is, when do I know that he is "digging" me back? And can you trust another person with your heart?
I can only speak for myself in this matter, so you are welcome to comment here!
There is with a little doubt in my voice that I say that I can only trust myself. Because there has been incidents where others have shown themselves trustworthy to me. But when it comes to love I must say that I am a little skeptic. So i am trying not to be that. Opening my heart and letting people in.
I bought these luck charm things to carry with me for different reasons. some for love, some for warmth, for enchantment and for keeping me happy and smiling.

But do they work? Time will tell...



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