"To digg or not to digg..."

When I think I know - my whole world get turned upside down again. And my heart skips a beat!

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away."

I know a dude that has this quote tattooed on his arm. I like this quote, i summons up a life in a sentence! This is how you should think about life!

Anyways back to the "digging". I do not know about you all, but it is never easy liking someone. The unspeakable question here is, when do I know that he is "digging" me back? And can you trust another person with your heart?
I can only speak for myself in this matter, so you are welcome to comment here!
There is with a little doubt in my voice that I say that I can only trust myself. Because there has been incidents where others have shown themselves trustworthy to me. But when it comes to love I must say that I am a little skeptic. So i am trying not to be that. Opening my heart and letting people in.
I bought these luck charm things to carry with me for different reasons. some for love, some for warmth, for enchantment and for keeping me happy and smiling.

But do they work? Time will tell...



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This time..

My body, mind and soul feels weird. It is like something is wrong. I guess it is just that I am in a bad place at the moment.

My inside feels like it will explode soon. I have a lot on my mind these days. And just for the time being it feels like I got no one to talk to! I know that that is not the case. But I do feel lonely. And the twist here is that I love being in my own company. It is not a good feeling, this loneliness-when-there-is-people-around-me-feeling. It is like a panic attack times 100!
So maybe it is my consciousness telling me to chill out and take a deep breath. I know from before that I do stress sometimes. I have an active persona that almost always is "up-there". I use a lot of energy! It can translate to, I eat a lot. And there is nothing wrong with that!

All the good things in life comes trough food! So to get trough to me, guess what - yes!

Where does all the people go? Just take a look around you and smile!


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Time

What are we going to do about it all. Is it written in stone? All the things that happens to a person in life.

Are we all just pieces in a pod?

As the time goes by I keep wondering about all the incidents in life. All the things we go trough in one life. All the people we meet. There is a reason for all this I think. If you go back in time you find the thin red line and see how it all connects. Do not forget to remember whats what in between those lines. Every time you meet a new person, move, change your profession and break something off. It is because there is something to it. Something that is waiting for you to find it. I search and search - for people, LOVE, heritage, a place to be me and a world that is in harmony.

It is all question mark that I do not understand. I thought I did, but it hit me in the back and told me the truth. You never know someone! It is an unseen world in another dimension that I just do not get. But this is what it is. The time we spend in our everyday life to try to get it. But do we ever really get it?

I think as time passes by we adapt. Just accept things and situations, words and people. I have a problem with just accepting. I have the urge to know why, where and when. Some say I think to much. Other say i talk to much. I think neither. I am just me and no one else. It is to hard to try to be someone else. I often say things just to get an reaction. But it is just things. If someone would take the time to sit down and really talk to me they would be surprised. But would they ever know the real me?


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